catch every good memories of my life by taking a look at my photo album. you can see that many people went in and out of my life but there's still emptiness if you look straight into my eyes. as i see those pictures, i often thought of what one of our professors told us about life.... "Many of us are happy but only few find true joy."

the picture speaks for itself...

PICTURE 1:(the past)

i kept a picture. the photo was taken about 4 years ago, after graduating from high school... my graduation ball to be exact. at that time, i was thinking that the guy in the picture will be the first and last man i'll ever love. i was so immature then but so happy.

he broke my heart...not because we were lovers but because we were best of friends...

it was not his fault. it just came to a point that we can't understand each other anymore. we were living in two different worlds. i was in college and he was in high school. problems aroused each other's confusion and anger... tore my heart apart as i thought he neglected me... and came to a point when i stopped believing he existed.

now, i hear some news about him... he even sent me a message... hoping that we can start anew... i, too, wanted the same thing.. putting aside the past. just as old friends do... nothing more, nothing less...

a fact i've learned... infatuation: it really doesn't last that long...

i am happy... i felt like i had traveled light years and had stepped on so many galaxies for only almost 2 hours here on earth. i wish it could happen again...

you were in front of me, holding your guitar and sang songs even though you're not really good at it... :)

i loved your voice... the way you make me smile with your corny jokes... at first, i thought i lost you... but i didn't... you were just there...

i know you're my friend... i won't demand for anything more than that... i need not to... you're special to me...it's enough for me to know that you're fine...you need not to know my feelings, it is not that important... as long as we are enjoying each others company and as long as we are friends, nobody can break our relationship...

thanks arcs14... thanks... :)

HE is my knight in shining armor... i can't remember the exact date and time we met. he was just someone an ordinary guy who inspired a million hearts... while i, an average student, was so busy and was desperately trying to get out of the toxicity of college life. It's not that we bumped into each other or something. It's because of the sweetness he showed me. He makes me smile everytime he sees me sad. He was actually an angel in disguise... I wasn't expecting HIM to be the one who will give me back my faith... the faith of meeting a guy who would accept and understand me for who I am. But then at one point, it is because of my attitude, being so undecided and so drastic in doing some ways, that he suddenly drew back and left me.

I'M SO STUPID....

i admit MY stupidity. i should have kept my mouth shut. i should have listened more. i should have been more understanding like him. i should have been more mature like him... there are times when i couldn't help myself from going back to my immature self and now, that's what i did. i was so sorry for what i did... i really am... but who will think that he will be coming back and be willing to accept me again... i'm confused...

I really think I should stop dreaming...

 i will only hurt myself...

but I think i already got myself hurt... again

hoping...

wishing...

rememebering...

letting go...

Letting go doesn't mean you have to forget the person. Letting go means doing what is best for you and for the one you love... being happy even though you had parted ways... You cannot measure love. Once it rests on you, it'll never go away... though the feeling may become less intense as before, it's still love... It just had to take a step lower... it is Life's way of leading you to the right person and to the right path... from lovers to friends... but it's still love...

Just be happy... learn to love yourself first... the right person will come... someday....

whoa...1 month... i haven't updated my journal for a month... that long.. oh well... i guess i've been busy with my schoolworks and other stuffs... hmmm... there's somebody leaving comments here.. and the big question that enters my mind right now is... WHO ARE YOU?... well... thanks for the comments... i really appreciate people leaving comments here even though my page really sucks... and the entries are not that good/entertaining... well... that's all for now... i have to study... AGAIN... (hmmm...di naman ako masyado masipag di ba? ehehehe...) bye for now...

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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